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Dr. Barbara Rommer has classified less-than-positive (LTP) near-death experiences
into four categories. These are negative or horrifying NDEs as opposed
to the heavenly type of NDE. Type I LTPs are those NDEs that are
misinterpreted positive NDEs. Type II LTPs involve the eternal void
that can often be very unpleasant. Type III LTPs are the hellish
NDEs where the experiencer sees visions of hell. Type IV LTPs are
NDEs that involve frightening life reviews. The following is an example
from Dr. Rommer's book Blessing in Disguise of a Type III LTP.
It appears that disavowing the reality or possibility of the existence
of a Higher Power may contribute to the "why" of a Less-Than-Positive
Experience: 19.4 percent of my LTP study group labeled themselves
as atheist or agnostic prior to their experience. If one also disrespects
life, then that just compounds the problem.
Such was the case with Joel, who is now seventy-five-years old, but was
fifty-eight years old at the time of his first Near-Death Experience.
Joel was raised in a Jewish home. After World War II, he became a
pharmacist. He became a diabetic when he was in his forties and later
developed many of the common complications of the disease. He stated:
"The first experience was when I was in the hospital with gangrene.
They were marking the progression up my leg. The pain was horrendous.
They decided to amputate the next day. I kept screaming: "I
want to die. Hell with the leg!" During the surgery this
is what happened. Out comes this ladder, right out of the heavens,
like Jacob's ladder. And here's this angel, male, in a mist, dressed
in a grayish-tan-gauze overlay. The angel told me I have no right
to want to die. I tried to climb that ladder, but the angel had strong
arms. I kept trying to get up there, and he slapped me, told me that
only the Lord will decide and that I should stop complaining. Then
he disappeared.
"I was out of the hospital for two weeks, didn't feel right, went
to the ER and had to be readmitted with congestive heart failure.
I developed bad pain in my side while I was there, had a workup and ended
up with a colostomy because it was cancer. What the hell! Why
not? That's when I had the second experience.
"Would you believe, here came the devil! There was a band of
people, all dressed in black, all wearing shrouds with hoods, about eight
of them and a leader. I said: "Oh, shit!" They
all had candles. The leader had slanted eyes and I thought maybe
the Japs were after me. I was in the Pacific theater in World War
II, so I know what Japs look like, but this was a tall son of a bitch!
Nobody spoke. They just nodded and pranced around with the candles.
If I'd had a gun I would've shot them.
"They were out to kill me. That I believe. They didn't
want me to live, maybe because I derided them. I don't believe in
hocus pocus. It was the candles that threw me off, and the fact that
I saw these slant eyes. I thought they were all Japs, but really
knew they weren't. But they were people I didn't like. They
wanted to do me harm and I was already in enough pain. I didn't want
any more. I didn't need this bullshit! And then the surgery
was over. It was awful surgery.
"I was in there for five weeks. Toward the end of the hospitalization,
BINGO, I was visited again, but this time it was just a voice. A
male voice called my name.
"It told me, in essence, to mind my p's and q's, not to get excited,
and that I'm being tested. I asked: "For what?"
I was admonished not to question, to take my medicine and if I don't like
it to keep quiet. It also suggested that I do a little praying, and
I'm "son-of-a-bitching" all over the place. I said:
"Praying don't help me." The pain was unbelieveable, because
they had to clean and pack my open wound four times a day. I had
said: "Just pull the pipes and let me go." The voice said:
"You don't decide, He'll decide." Then, here comes this
fella down the ladder again right out of the heavens, right out of the
clouds. I said: "This time are you going to take me up
the ladder?" The answer was: "No." In the meantime,
back at the ranch, the surgeon was telling my family that there was no
hope for me. My heart had stopped a couple of times, but here I am!
:"Afterwards, one of the rabbis came up to the room to see me.
I told him that I wasn't interested in rabbis. I told him about the
meeting with the Man from upstairs and I said to him that I don't want
to live anymore. That rabbi took off his yarmulke and started to
curse me. I have never heard anyone who could curse as well as I
can. He asked me who the hell I thought I was. I told him to
mind his own business and that he can go to hell and take his religion
with him. I told him to get the hell away from me. He said:
"Only God decides who lives and dies." I said: "I
don't believe in God." He said that if I didn't believe in God,
then I wouldn't see angels. I got so angry that I put the side rails
down, got out of bed and fell, so they had to stitch me up and tie me down.
I told him that I want to get the hell out of this life, no matter where
I go, down below or wherever. And it must be something that all these
rabbis learned way back, because he also said again: "God decides
who lives and who dies." I told him: "During the war I
didn't believe in God, and when they say there are no atheists in foxholes
that's bullshit. When these priests come in and cross themselves,
that's bullshit also. So don't come in here and start preaching."
The "why" of Joel's LTP was twofold. First, he kept whishing
himself dead, and second, he said repeatedly that he didn't believe in
God, even using the word "atheist." The LTP "suggested"
to him that there is, in fact, a Higher Power, and that only that Higher
Power has the authority to decide when one's life is over. The symbolism,
Joel thinking that the group of shrouded figures with candles were led
by a "Jap," goes back to his awful experience of being held captive
by Japanese in WWII and the horrors that he endured there. Joel is
a very visual person. Has he changed as a result of what happened?
Yes, he has. He now goes to temple often, and does feel that there
is a Higher Power.
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